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Anxiety by Kaif Ul Wara

We met on a dark, gloomy Winter night

Emotions shattering

Like a broken glass

 

You knock on my door 

As my palms sweat, 

Tears flow down my eyes

 

Knowing you bring with you

Loneliness, anger and pain

Yet somehow, I allow you in

 

And here you are,

always so near

like a shadow of the past

Wanting to repeat history

On a snowy winter’s night

 

Emptying my filled pockets

As you are Running through my veins

I wish I could tell you to stop

And realise

you are just the voice in my head

But you control me

And

That is your success.

 

You are the anxiety

I am trying to escape

I hope you know

Now begins the recovery

I will defeat you

As I begin to slowly remove the mask of the emotions

that you gave

 

I realise that your presence

Relies on my ability to let you in

As I begin to understand you are powerless

As long as I do not open the door

To let you in

 

You will no longer have control,

Nor, the ability to

constantly take over my thoughts

as I begin to discover myself

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Kaif is studying a Bachelor of Criminology/ Bachelor of Laws at La Trobe.  She likes to read and write poetry in her free time. Her favourite poetry book is The Prophet by Khalil Gibran.  Her favourite poem is  “Because I could not stop for Death” by Emily Dickinson.  You can follow her on Instagram @kaifulwara21 for more on her isolation journal entries and poems.